Confession number the third: I couldn't do this without my friends.
Today I had to go to work. I didn't want to. There is not a single part of me that wanted to talk to a stranger, let alone be at their beck and call for hours on end.
I arrived at work, groggy from a night of tossing and turning and instantly wanted to go home. I had set myself up for disaster, as the mind is a powerful thing and mine, at this time, just wanted to be in bed.
A friend of mine walked past my work, stopped, turned around and came in to give me a hug. This is the second hug that I have gotten from anyone since Chico left me and I can't even begin to tell you how good it felt. My mind started convincing me that being out of the house, moreover, being forced to socialize, was a good thing. I still didn't want to speak to my tables any more than I had to, but started wanting to talk to my friends.
At the end of my shift, I was given a gift and told to open it at home. It is one of the most thoughtful things I have ever received and, naturally, made me cry.
Today I had to go to work. I didn't want to. There is not a single part of me that wanted to talk to a stranger, let alone be at their beck and call for hours on end.
I arrived at work, groggy from a night of tossing and turning and instantly wanted to go home. I had set myself up for disaster, as the mind is a powerful thing and mine, at this time, just wanted to be in bed.
A friend of mine walked past my work, stopped, turned around and came in to give me a hug. This is the second hug that I have gotten from anyone since Chico left me and I can't even begin to tell you how good it felt. My mind started convincing me that being out of the house, moreover, being forced to socialize, was a good thing. I still didn't want to speak to my tables any more than I had to, but started wanting to talk to my friends.
At the end of my shift, I was given a gift and told to open it at home. It is one of the most thoughtful things I have ever received and, naturally, made me cry.
In addition to the love I felt today, I have also had my two best friends offer to fly across the country, just to be with me in my time of sadness. These are friends that know how much my dogs mean to me and know how much I am hurting, as I'm sure they feel it too. Whether they do, or do not come is irrelevant next to the kindness of the initial thought.
From the bottom of my aching heart, thank you. Words can't really express how lucky I feel to have such wholesome, caring people in my life.
From the bottom of my aching heart, thank you. Words can't really express how lucky I feel to have such wholesome, caring people in my life.