I can'rtstop forgetting the way you died.
I can remember the moment that you started getting sleepy and the moment that took your life away. It felt as though the whole thing took under a minute. I know that this is because your poor little heart couldn't handle the sedation, but it was still scary. You didn't seem comfortable at the end, nor did you seem to care.
I remember your face when the vet put the needle in for the anesthetic. I remember how it hurt you. I remember putting you down, and feeding you some of your treats, and then you were gone, not dead, but gone.
At that moment you had left me, It's my fault. I did this to you. I asked someone to come take your life away. I'm sorry, Paco. I didn't want you to suffer and die alone, like your poor brother. I'm so sorry.
You struggled to breathe for about 30 seconds while the vet shaved your back leg and looked for the vein to put in whatever it was that would ultimately take your life away.
I feel so fucked up about this, Paco. I'm so sorry.
I can remember the moment that you started getting sleepy and the moment that took your life away. It felt as though the whole thing took under a minute. I know that this is because your poor little heart couldn't handle the sedation, but it was still scary. You didn't seem comfortable at the end, nor did you seem to care.
I remember your face when the vet put the needle in for the anesthetic. I remember how it hurt you. I remember putting you down, and feeding you some of your treats, and then you were gone, not dead, but gone.
At that moment you had left me, It's my fault. I did this to you. I asked someone to come take your life away. I'm sorry, Paco. I didn't want you to suffer and die alone, like your poor brother. I'm so sorry.
You struggled to breathe for about 30 seconds while the vet shaved your back leg and looked for the vein to put in whatever it was that would ultimately take your life away.
I feel so fucked up about this, Paco. I'm so sorry.