My boys are together, and I hate it. They are just sitting on my dresser, both in different forms and it makes me mad.
Paco is home though, so I shouldn't be so upset, I suppose. It''s pretty messed up, the way life has been lately. I'm not too sure what to make of it. I just got word that Piper has been sent to the Bridge too. Poor thing. Paco is there and ready to take care of you, Chico too.
Selfishly. I wish this could have happened a little later in my relationship with Paul, as it's new, and dealing with death is a big deal. I know that it will only make us stronger, but I can't help but worry that this is too much, and he'll leave.
Yesterday, I thought I was doing a bit better, but then I woke up today and am sad and grumpy again. I think I'm mad that I have to be sad again this year. I've put so much into myself, to get healthy and strong, but I'm so sad. I feel like I've already gone through enough heart ache for a few years, but I guess not. I mean, I knew you were dying, Paco, there was no denying that. I suppose that I just dreamt that you would never actually die, like you would get worse, but just always be there.
Leia is taking good care of me, Paco. Well, as much as I let her anyway .She licks a lot, but you know that.
I miss you, Paco. I keep thinking I see you, putsing around the house, or hear you barking with your little bird bark. Thank you, for teaching me all that you did. You were such a wonderful best friend.
Paco is home though, so I shouldn't be so upset, I suppose. It''s pretty messed up, the way life has been lately. I'm not too sure what to make of it. I just got word that Piper has been sent to the Bridge too. Poor thing. Paco is there and ready to take care of you, Chico too.
Selfishly. I wish this could have happened a little later in my relationship with Paul, as it's new, and dealing with death is a big deal. I know that it will only make us stronger, but I can't help but worry that this is too much, and he'll leave.
Yesterday, I thought I was doing a bit better, but then I woke up today and am sad and grumpy again. I think I'm mad that I have to be sad again this year. I've put so much into myself, to get healthy and strong, but I'm so sad. I feel like I've already gone through enough heart ache for a few years, but I guess not. I mean, I knew you were dying, Paco, there was no denying that. I suppose that I just dreamt that you would never actually die, like you would get worse, but just always be there.
Leia is taking good care of me, Paco. Well, as much as I let her anyway .She licks a lot, but you know that.
I miss you, Paco. I keep thinking I see you, putsing around the house, or hear you barking with your little bird bark. Thank you, for teaching me all that you did. You were such a wonderful best friend.